my heart is an open palm, exposed and raw
In my land of bright lights you are effervescent -
Overwhelming at once, I am oblivious the next.
You are the palpable product of words I never meant,
Of clouded judgement, infinite dreams; my sweet Regret.
My conscience weighs you down and embeds you
Somewhere in the murky depths of this sepulchral soul.
Yet there is little want of redemption for what I do,
And you and your kind maketh the stories I never told.
Even now I would sing that I am yours, Yours!
As I believe you are mine in all your tainted forms.
Sucker as I am for your taste, touch and allure,
The beauty of folly is not weeping when all else mourns.
So this is an ode to my ill-fated penchant for
Secrets I have to keep, and everything that
I loved to hold but not to possess.
That I wish to forget, but forget to regret.
Saturday, July 02, 2005
half-boiled eggs are rather unconventional for lunch but who really cares anyway. well had fun yesterday doing the invitations and i must say, they are preddy! gonna go collect them later. well my darling hwee hwee, cherlynn, yudhi and sky are coming over later. more fun and then it's off to church for moosik prac. have no idea what to choose for worship tomorrow. do have some songs on the wait list, but yeah it's jes tentative.
i feel really old, like how i'm gonna turn 18 next year and then i'll be legal. and then temptations to go clubbing and all that will be aggravated, not that my friends like to club that much. but YAH, i reallyreally gotta have loads of self-control next year, especially when my birthday's like early in the year. then it's the BIG A's next year and im really getting worried. somehow i keep thinking that i'll end up doing something that i never thought i would. And i really should make a better choice next time. note: i said choice, not by default. get that right. but then, everyone said that chemistry was a killer and if i chose to remain, then i guess i'd be butchered. hurhur im sucha pessimist.
don't you love hols, they give you all the time in the world to think about things which really don't matter at all. i can't wait to go shopping tomorrow!
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